What am I supposed do when the best part of me was always you?

What am I supposed say when I’m all choked up and you’re okay?

I’m falling to pieces.

Parati naman ganito ang kinalalabasan, diba? Parating may umiiyak sa huli, parating may nasasaktan. Ewan, ayaw ko na. Ayaw ko na talaga. TAMA NA. Ang sakit na kasi eh. Sinusubukan ko na talaga makaraos dito. Kaya naman eh. Konting tiis lang. Kaya ko na ‘to. Ano naman kung isang taon ko ‘to naramdaman? San naman nauwi? Sa wala, diba? Tama na kasi. Ayaw ko nang magpakatanga. Ayaw ko nang umasa sa wala. Wala naman talaga, diba? Wala siyang pake. Bakit pa ako magtitiis? Bakit ako pa yung kailangan maghirap? Eh, ano naman kung sayang sa oras? Eh diba mas sayang kung pinagpatuloy ko pa, kahit alam kong wala rin namang mangyayari? Wala. Ayaw ko na ‘tong problemahin!

ANYWAY, TAMA NA.

UPCAT na lang ikekwento ko, para masaya na tayong lahat. Ayun, ang ganda ng UP Diliman! Haha. Salamat nga pala kay Ate TJ, kasi sinamahan niya ako. Yehes naman e, graduate ng UP kasama ko. Oh diba ang angas ko nun. =)) HAHA. ;P

Anyway, okay naman yung test. Pero grabe, sana talaga pumasa ako. :-S May doubts parin ako e. HAY. Ayun, medyo malapit na rin entrance exam ng La Salle. WUHU, TODO ARAL NA AKO DUN!! =))

O sige, tinatamad na ako. Bye.

You’ve got HER heart and MY heart.

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I’ve been feeling so blank for these past few days. I don’t know, maybe it’s because we’ve been having so many exams. -_- As in, sunod-sunod talaga sila. Wala talaga ako sa mood mag blog nun since… I thought sayang lang sa oras. Pero ayun, nagkaron na ako ng time. Nilulubos ko na ang Thursday ko, kasi alam ko busy na ako starting tomorrow. Medyo pinagsabay lang naman kasi yung UPCAT at quarterly exams. Yun lang naman. Hahaha. Shit eh. Pero ayun, think positive! HAHA.

So… mas lalo akong na-blanko nung naka-usap ko siya ulit. I will make a separate blog post about that. Hahaha. Masyadong mabigat e. Haha. Basta, eto clue, it has (or had) something to do with my stat in Y!M. Basta, yun na yan, K?

Nabablanko talaga ako. Wala akong ma-type na maayos. Pasensya na.

Hindi ko na alam, kasi pati yung pakikitungo ko sa mga kaibigan ko naaapektohan e. Minsan mabilis akong mapikon, minsan naman hindi. Alam mo ‘yon, para na akong bipolar, pero hindi naman ganon kagrabe. Ayun, minsan kasi pag gusto kong pag-usapan, parang masyado silang masaya… yung tipong ayaw mong sirain yung moment. Tsaka, ano ba, sasabihin na naman nila, “Eto na naman si Claudine. Nagdadrama. DQ kasi.” Ayaw ko naman ng ganon. Kaya kinimkim ko na lang. Hindi rin naman kasi ako mahilig sumandal sa iba kapag umiiyak o may problema e. Gusto ko ako na lang, pero kasi… sobrang dami na e. Hindi ko na kayang itago lahat. So siguro, dito ko na lang ilalabas. Kaya nga may blog, diba?

Ayun. Bullsh*t ang ibang nangyari sa araw na ‘to, pero kahit papano, okay parin naman. Syempre, hindi naman lahat negative e. Impossible yun. Haha. Pero ayun, kailangan ko lang ng break, okay? Hindi ko kailangan ng kausap, ng tagapagpayo… break lang, please? Sigurado naman akong marami din nag-aasam niyan e. Haaaayy, kaso… pwede pa ba? Hello, long test na next week, tapos UPCAT pa, tapos QUARTERLY na. Oh diba? Tapos nun ENGLISH PLAY na! Oh diba, astig? Hindi rin naman nila kami gustong patayin diba? Hindi rin naman nila gustong nakawin ang youth namin, diba? HAY NAKO.

O sige na. Makaalis na nga dito. Mag-aaral pa ako. Baka sakaling makalimutan ko yun sa sobrang sabaw ng utak ko. HAHA.

Anyway, today was just like any other day. I woke up early, I ate breakfast, I brushed my teeth, took a bath, got ready – you know, my daily morning routine. It’s the same process all over again. It never changes. There’s no thrill. It’s always the same.

Don’t get me wrong, I am thankful for this day. It’s just that… gaah, I feel like something’s missing. I feel so… BLANK.

Oh well, I’ll just have to hope for a better day tomorrow. Oh wait, better yet, try to make the best out of tomorrow. -_- I hope it’s Friday already. Gahd.

Anyway, I should go now. I still have to do some notes and study.

TONIGHT’S AGENDA:

- AP
- PHYSICS
- MATH
- FILIPINO
- ENGLISH

K, bye.

My comments about the movie? Well, yeah, I admit – the ending was a total cliffhanger. People around us were pissed. Haha!

But anyway, it’s still good… it’s just that… I was expecting a bit more, since this is the part where Dumbledore dies, right? I was expecting more angst… but instead, I got comedy and truckloads of flashbacks. NOT THAT I’M COMPLAINING OR ANYTHING. Who knows? Maybe they wanted to make Dumbledore’s death less angsty or something. ;P

One thing that bothers me is the fact that Draco doesn’t have that much scenes anymore. Ever since HP4 or 5, he hasn’t been having much exposure to the camera. YES, IT BOTHERS ME. After all, he is one of my main reasons why I watch HP. ;P HAHA! (I’m not kidding)

But anyway, at least he still looks as dashing as ever. XD I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AND WILL ALWAYS BE A DIE HARD FAN OF HIS. ♥

Anyway, after watching, we decided to head back home. Boo. If only there were no classes tomorrow, we could’ve had dinner there.

So yea, this is the part where I should end my post. But before that, I would just like to say…

ADVANCED HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KATHLEEN! ;D

Okay, I’m done here. I still have to study for Physics and Math. Gaaaaaah.

Nakakapagod. Sa maling street ako nadala ng tricycle kanina. Nilakad ko magmula Estanislao street (sa labas) hanggang sa loob, so dumaan pa ako dun sa tapat ng bahay nila Rikka. IN HIGH HEELS, FTW. Buti na lang nakauwi ako ng walang masamang nangyari, haha! Pero ayun, ang saya! Adventure sa BF. HAHAHA. Hindi naman nanakit ng husto yung paa ko. Napagod lang talaga ako, pero ‘di siya super sakit.

Ayun, sige tama na yan. You get the point na. XD So ayun, masaya naman ako ngayon. Umagang-umaga… ano eh… yun. Hahaha! Tapos nung lunch din. Kaso sayang wala na nung dismissal eh. Oh well. Okay lang yun! Basta… importante ano. HAHAHA. Ang labo ko, shet!

Ano pa ba? Nasasabaw ako ngayon eh! I blame the 4 Homeric Codes. XD AND PHYSICS. Wala lang, gusto ko pagbintangan yun. ANO, MAY ANGAL? Joke laaaaaang XD hahaha.

Sige na nga. Whatever. Baka kung ano pa malagay ko dito. Babye.

…anyway, putting that aside

Masaya ako ngayong araw na ‘to. Naleche lang talaga ako nung nabasa ko yun. Tae kasi, ang ARTE! Anak ng pitong kuba. HAHA! Ayun, sige tama na, baka matamaan na siya e.

Wala namang masamang nangyari ngayon. Ang saya nung seatwork sa Math. I REALLY LOVE NUMBERS! HAHA.

Ano pa ba? Wala na siguro. Basta, naiinis talaga ako. Siguro icoconfront ko na lang siya or something – meh. Parang ako ‘di niya ginan’to eh! Oo, nagkikimkim parin ako dun! Anak ng. Ang plastic e. ETO, REVENGE KO NA. Oo, immature much? Eh gan’to ako magalit e! Di pwedeng di ako gumanti! Leche ka kasi, ANG ARTE MO. Akala mo ang galing mo? Akala mo magaling ka magpatawa? HINDI EH. Akala mo mas magaling ka sakin? UMASA KA PA. Lintek ka! Naleleche lang ako pag nakita kita.

…buti na lang nakita ko siya.

Gaaaah, nagrant lang naman ata ako eh. Haha! Maka alis na nga dito bago ko pa masabi yung pangalan niya. BYE.

Let’s start with the MAKING THE FOOD HERE AT MY HOUSE.
…I woke up at about 5:00 AM since I thought they were coming here early. But no, I was wrong. Haha! Ven arrived here at about 6:30 AM, to be followed by Armi who arrived here at about… 6:45? The last was Celina and Aya; they arrived here at about 7:00 AM XD

So we started making the food for GK. We made 30+ sandwiches in 45 mins! We were only 5 then. Hah!

After that, we rushed to get to school since the bus was leaving at 8:15 AM. Thank God we were still able to make it, haha!

…on the way

It was quiet. I mean, we were still talking to each other, but still, it wasn’t that noisy. Weird. Haha.

I just decided to put on my earphones and listen to music. Then that came across my mind again. I guess I’m still stuck with that, after all this time…

OH ANYWAY, we finally arrived after about 20-25 mins, I think? The first activity assigned for our group was gardening.

Oh boy, was it fun.

The soil f*cked up my shoes. The sun made me feel sticky and dirty. The mosquitoes were being b*tches.

…but despite that, I had fun.

It wasn’t that bad, I mean, it’s nice experiencing stuff like that from time to time.

Anyway, after gardening, the next activity that was in store for us was folding. It killed my thumb. XD

After folding, the last activity was tutoring. I have no complains whatsoever. I enjoyed every minute of it.

Once GK was done, we headed back to the bus. We were all so tired and exhausted! Haha. But it was a great experience, I guess.

Anyway, once we were back at school, we went to my house to practice for our English play.

…once we got here

…we decided to order lunch first. XD We ordered at Yellowcab. KKB! Haha. So yea, while waiting, we played chess.

Once it got here, we ate, and after eating, we practiced already.

After that, some of my left already. Only 4 were left, I think. Before they left, we ate and shared some things XD haha. Hindi na yun lalabas samin.

All in all, yesterday was busy and fun at the same time. Too bad, since today will only be BUSY. No more fun. Ugh.

THINGS TO DO FOR TODAY:
- PE
- AP
- GK reflection paper
- Study for Math
- Physics hw
- study for Physics
- facts chart in English
- finish the write up thing

Bullsh*t.

Thank God it’s Friday! OH WAIT, NO. We still have our outreach tomorrow, so yea… I still have to wake up early. Some of my classmates will be coming over here tomorrow at about 6:30 AM to make the juice and food for the outreach. XD So because of that, I should prolly wake up at about 4:30, since yeah, it takes forever for me to fix myself. Haha!

Oh anyway, aside from the outreach, we also have practice for our English play tomorrow. AND YES, IT WILL BE HELD HERE. RIGHT AFTER GK. Haha. Time? Uhh… Idk. Any time is fine with me.

Enough about tomorrow. I should start sharing the things that happened today.

I. AM. TIRED.

…but happy.

First off, PE! It was tiring and fun at the same time! Haha. I had fun with the different activities we did, especially with the Snake thing… Skin the Snake, was it? Oh whatever. Haha. Then of course, we played AGAW BASE!! Haha.

After PE, it was time for our Mock Interview! I guess I can say that things went pretty well. I mean, I was able to answer the interviewer’s questions pretty well, if I may say so myself. I just hope I said the right words. *crosses fingers*

We then had lunch after our mock interview. As usual, I was with my friends. I’m glad Jean and Marianne are feeling better now! I missed them so.

So after lunch, we had Physics! Vectors are fun! (no, not the vector in Photoshop. HAHA!) So yea, we did some recitations, to be followed by exercises.

…did I mention I hate people who think they’re so smart?

HAHA. Kidding. Don’t mind that. XD I WAS JUST SAYING. Don’t worry! I’m not stating a specific someone. Like I said, I was just saying… (sarcastic much?)

So finally when Physics was done, we had our ZL clubs already.

FIRST OFF, ANIME CLUB: We watched Naruto. I have watched this for the nth time already, but somehow some scenes never fail to amuse me. XD I guess my fandom never really died. Well, to be honest, I kinda miss my fandom in Naruto. *sigh* Those were the days. LOL.

NEXT UP, RECREATION CLUB: I moved! I am no longer a member of the Chess club. HAHA. Well yea, since I absolutely suck at it. Might as well move to a ZL where we get to do… nothing. HAHA, JOKE.

LAST BUT NOT THE LEAST, CHAMBER: I missed my clarinet! Haha. I left it at the bandroom last meeting, so I was really excited to use it again. I love our new piece! Haha. Michael Jackson Medley! \m/

After ZL classes, we had our mentoring. We just answered some questions concerning our expectations for college and our future careers.

THEN THANK GOD THE BELL RANG ALREADY. But no, I wasn’t supposed to go home yet. We still had to proceed to the FBA lobby since we still have our practice for our English play. We finished at about… 7?

…and thank God, I was able to go home safely.

Anyway, that would be all. I am looking forward for tomorrow, haha! Idk why, tho. ;P LABO. XD

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BTW, I didn’t see him today. HAHAHA.